Sunday, April 30, 2006

I have to listen to them every day, every night
I'm a sucker for MAE already

Went to get a new swimsuit at noon and headed for a dip of 15laps. It was a good time of just me, me and more of me in the pool that was overloaded with little kids. Thereafter I came home and went downstairs for some floorball. Glad the self-training was of some help because now I can turn the ball at my left and hit the mid wall, yipeeeee! And then it started raining so I got back and grabbed my books, went to Plaza's Macs to study. Getting really proud of myself at how well-disciplined and brave I am. No longer the sissy who needed company all the time, I guess.

I never had the time to do these things I enjoy, so here's a wide smile for the time that I now have. Okay, don't roll your eyes at me!

It's getting back into me again. This whole "Why are you away from me?" and "It's just some paper what" issue. Fancy talking to you online most of the time and never meeting up until it's someone's birthday. I wish I never had to be this strong. Can I just run into my pillows and cry it away? But I've tried it since I was 3 but it never left me, it never stopped haunting me that I will be left alone one fateful day. I'm no longer angry about it, I'm just hurt that we are not doing anything to reciprocate what our parents did unto us. We have been apart for so long that you have forgotten when your biological mother's birthday is. Maybe it was just right that we never contacted at all for that 7 years of my childhood.

12:22 AM