Sunday, June 18, 2006

I'm sorry I can't bring myself to wish you

This is the first year ever since I acknowledged you. Yet till now, I don't remember greeting you "Daddy". I find myself contradicting my own feelings and thoughts. I know that no matter how much I tell everyone around me and myself "it's okay, I'm used to it", I don't want to be. Inside, I still yearn for the day to come where my household would not consist of only my Mum and I but also both my brothers and you. I'm over with the "where-have-you-been-the-past-16-years" phase because whatever your reason is, it is already part of the past. And I don't blame you because your saving grace is that you are human and a man.

But would you grant my naive request, please? Of giving me what I've lacked since I was a baby? A complete family?

I really don't want to feel like this but can I help it?
It comes back every third weekend of June

12:04 AM