Monday, June 12, 2006

Siewling and Rhubini mentioned Eternal Sunshine in their blog entries and it occured to me that although a person has had disappointed you countless times, that makes the person harder to forget.

It's like how you made me feel so upset when you dropped out of school, left us and aborted your vision. You were like an elder brother to me and thereafter, I was left by myself. Everytime I met you, I wanted to scream into your face but I never brought myself to it. Because no matter how much I try to remind myself how heartless you were, I cannot forget how grateful I really am towards you and how much I had learnt from you. The times when one message could just bring you to anywhere I would like to go and the times we spent up at the rooftop playing our guitars and singing. Everytime you prayed and led everyone, I told myself that, "I want to be like you". It was like a norm, we met up for almost everyday, spent the whole day together and then you would send me home. Yet, we both knew that that wouldn't last for long. We knew. Because all we can do now is sit down and look back, our friendship has become a part of the past. If that's so, I hope time can slowly take these memories away..

In order for Eternal Sunshine to take place, the first condition is to forget the smiles.

11:27 AM