Thursday, October 05, 2006

She was telling me about how this year has been a year of thorough change in most of us. She asked me to take time and read my archives. I really did change tremedously. The way I led life in the first half of the year and now, life in the later half of the year is indeed very different. My outlook on love, people and life has also changed. (I sound like I fell out of love, lol maybe I did) I don't know which one of myself I prefer. But all I know is I'm glad that I've advanced and maybe that's reason enough for me to like the new me.

One of the things that I picked up this year and will bring along with me in this race of life is that this is truly a race. In every race, majority of the people would have targetted in their hearts to complete it faster than the rest and come in tops, others may just have a goal of not coming in last and a minority with a specific target to attain regardless of what position they come in as. This small group of people are most probably the more seasoned experienced ones. There's this poster in the school canteen that says "You've completed the race. You come in 14790th" with a very jubilant runner probably feeling very satisfied :)

Strength of my heart, teach me to be like that runner. Teach me to be contented as long as I achieve my personal goals. I don't want to outrun others, I just want to outrun myself because I know how it feels to try too hard and fall flat on my butt from the 999th story. I had to start from the 1st floor all over again. I don't want that to happen again.

5:16 PM